I know that I've been posting a lot lately.  But it just seems like I've had so much on my mind!  We're trying to move everything from our storage unit into our apartment.  Boy is that slow going.  First of all, I didn't realize how much we had in there.  Too much.  We had all of Blaine's baby things stored up to the top.  His crib, high chair, his little bouncy chair, car seat.  As you can imagine, those things take up a lot of space.  But I wanted to keep them and I kept moving them because I couldn't bear to let them go.  We finally decided it was time and hauled it all to Goodwill today.  As soon as we emptied our car and drove away, I cried and cried (I seem to cry a lot, don't I?).  I felt like I was giving a piece of Blaine away.  I felt like I was selling the memories of our only child.  Michael put his hand on mine and said,"There could be someone out there that really needs these things...and we don't anymore."  He's right of course and that did help me to feel a lot better.  I just really, really, really, really don't like change.  And it seems like there's something new happening every time I turn around.  Blaine started school, I'm a classroom mom, a new calling, having to get a cell phone (don't even get me started on those things!) anything regarding Blaine's health.  Now shoving everything into our tiny apartment and really downsizing our lives.....it's been a weird ride people.  But truthfully, I'm very blessed.  As crazy as I think my life is, most people have it crazier and harder.  So....deep breaths and moving on.........